Wednesday, October 12, 2011


It's definitely hard to explain to others my struggle I've been dealing with in the past Summer, especially because of my ecstatic enthusiasm with life in general. I'm sure only people close to me experience the outbursts I portray; hardships of my own self.
So with my treatment:
I've been taking Teasel root for same amount of time I have been taking antibiotics and various supplements. Teasel is a tall prickly stalk, standing tall through the winter. My friend took me out to a swamp where Teasel was scattered across the perimeter. The joy of being surrounded by medicine I never thought could even have healing properties, totally engulfed me.
Teasel Root is very powerful, starting at one drop at a time. . .
One drop, two drops a day; then three, three times a day. Every individual is different, and so it depends on self reaction.
I've been studying a Lil' about the brain and how our thoughts create chemical pathways in our neurological system that trigger our body's reaction. It's very intense, just another book to open, or start writting.This is bigger than I will ever understand, so. I go wid da flow... lol :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011



I attended a full moon ceremony at my cousins house this evening. There I rejoiced in Love from fellow family members, the presence of each of us a blessing. We gave thanks and shared our prayers out loud with each other. I also brought a friend who just moved into town from out of the area, and made plans to go to the spa afterward.

While sitting in the Sauna, pouring water on the rocks as if it's a lodge;) I began to talk to her about my thoughts in acquiring this disease. I told her about the healing and creative gifts I had to offer, and how I haven't been honoring their potential. She survived a brain hemorrhage when the doctors said she would be blind and paralyzed for life. I asked her what kind of fear she had during that time. She told me she didn't have fear. Surprised and in admiration, I began to throw my hands as a physical action to release any fears I was thinking of at the moment. Earlier in the evening my cousin shared her emotions of having the surgery of discs into her neck; a very scary thought. I could relate to those tears as the same ones rolling down my cheeks time after time. Overwhelmed by the unknown, with waves of emotional, physical, and mental stress. I imagined what it would be like to be free from these fears, completely letting go, and having faith in Creators plan. Just this thought in that one moment, the next thought, the next moment, the now. I have a choice to heal; a choice to release myself from fear.

One of my favorite poems:

Our Deepest Fear
by Marianne Williamson
from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Having friends and family around me with positive beliefs is certainly making a big difference!! I came home to a wonderful mother who helped me study material I have missed from Language class. Our Grandmother moon is bright out there shining over us, and tonight is a good night to sleep ;)

Nyawenkowa Shukwayentisu!


--a quote from this link :

Monday, October 10, 2011

Se1f 1ove.

Tuesday, 10-11-2011

I am starting this Blog to write about my experiences with Lyme disease treatment. I have a lot learn about this new lil' friend, and more to learn about myself. It took a long time to discover LD in my system, as many symptoms are common with other types of diseases. My mother had to actually tell the doctor to test me for everything after months of mis-diagnosis. It sure is a relief to know where the source of my pain is coming from, but then is that really the source? After all there must be a bigger reason I am carrying this with me. Doing a lot of research into other's heartfelt and inspiring stories, I came across of few words that really sang songs to me. In the realization of how I attracted this disease, and the steps back to a healthy path; it all comes back to me.

Laura Bruno wrote in one of her blogs about Lyme:

"The biggest common denominator seems to be that Lyme arrives when some anger has gone unexpressed and when self-love does not match the degree of love and blessings these folks spread into the world"